Okay today’s ramble is going to be a bit of a mish mash of thought and ideas. Originally, today I actually thought I’d write that blog about the sneaker game – but it’s pissing me off right now as these limited edition sneakers keep getting released that are near on impossible to get. Like I know another pair coming out soon, there’s only 8,500 pairs being released worldwide – and all it does is fuel reseller communities (who crazily bump the prices up). But that’s part of the game I guess.
And far out I need a hair cut, this covid iso staying at home thing ain’t doing much for my pants. Yeah sorry I’m not making much sense today – already!
You see, I wake up crazy early these days (like 3 or 4am) and I don’t get back to sleep. I mean I’m sure it’s because I’m not doing enough during my days to tire me out. So, here I am at 7.15am turning on the computer, something I never ever do, but iso insomnia calls for desperate measures! And at least everyone can now see me as the crazy person I really am!! But far out I love writing like this, just letting the words dribble out upon the page, like seriously this is probably the most enjoyable blog I’ve written so far. You’re probably hating it haha.
But oh okay I’ll make me point now – run my fun! See, I intentionally used that sneaker example straight off the bat as a blog that I said I planned to write. Just like I said I’d write a fictional story. Only what I’m finding with these blogs, if they are planned I don’t find the process nearly as enjoyable and beneficial (for me). And to me a planned blog is typically about entertainment or the parting of trivial information, whereas for me personally, I really should and need to focus a lot more on the personal development side of things. Now I’m not at all saying that there won’t be a place for creativity, it’s just that I need to be a bit more free with the process – I think.
Or to put it another way, writing is my therapist.
It’s how I work through shit and gather my thoughts.
And I truly love nothing more than to open up a blank document first thing in the morning (but c’mon realistically at 9.30am) and than to just start writing and surprise myself by what comes out. No plans just pure dribble and bullshit. But this is what I love and I don’t want to do anything to jeopardise this process right now – so I’m not going to write about sneakers nor am I going to write a fictional story – unless the topics happen to come into my mind one morning. Instead, as I wake up each morning, to paraphrase Earnest Hemmingway, ‘I’m simply going to bleed all over the page’.
Far out 10 words short of 500 again, I really need to start saying ‘… and, umm, err, yeah & fire truck’ a lot more. Still, I hope you’re enjoying this weird and wonderful process of mine 🙂